Okay, so anyone who spends any amount of time with me knows about my struggles with infertility over the last year. I have never written about it because, it is what it is, and sometimes it is hard to put those feelings into words. After a very disappointing weekend, I stumbled across the following written by Nancy Devinney on the Stepping Stones website and felt like it encompassed much of what I have been feeling.
Question: What is infertility?
Answer: Infertility is...
The robber of childhood dreams,
The thief of wifely desires,
The take of the assumed.
Cry, scream, yell,
Feel alone even with the arms of your husband around you.
The monthly reminder,
The fallen hopes.
Dreams gone,
Shattered like fragile glass.
The ever-empty arms that ache and hurt with the sounds of children laughing.
The hidden pain at baby showers,
The ignorance of people asking you, "When is your turn?"
The failure.
The child who walks by looking like the one you dream of, long to hold.
The ever-present deep knife in your heart.
Infertility is all the above,
Infertility is also...
Trusting that He will never leave us or forsake us.
Knowing that "[Nothing] will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus" (Romans 8:39 NIV).
Believing that "I can do everything through Him who gives me strength" (Philippians 4:13 NIV).
Hoping that "You and I may be mutually encouraged by each other's faith" (Romans 1:11 NIV).
8 comments:
I'm so sorry that things didn't go as planned this month. I have been thinking about you guys a lot! You spirit through all this is amazing.
Also, did I ever send you the pictures from Symphony at Sunset? I meant to, but can't remember if I actually did.
Let's do dinner soon.
Gracie you are so strong in the Lord and that will be rewarded. Can't wait to see you soon!
i just said a prayer for you. God is good...so hang in there!! know that i'm gonna be prayin' for you until we get the news we want!!!
those words are so infinitely true. no one understands but those who have experienced it, and those of us who know how it feels would never wish it on our worst enemy. no woman should ever have to feel it, but so many of us do and never speak about it. i admire you so much for your openness, honesty, and your faith. i came close to losing mine when i was where you are; you are so strong--an example for all of us. take heart, gracie! the Lord has plans to prosper and not to harm you! keep persevering. love you.
Praying for you!! Hang in there! I just added you to my blog list. See you soon.
Hey Gracie,
I have been there so many times. Your faith is so encouraging and you are touching so many people without even knowing it.
I would love to chat with you when you get a chance!
Post pics of your new paint jobs!!!! Hope too see you in the next few months! Love you!
Gracie,
Be encourage in the Lord! Hang in there. There's nothing you going through that you and God can't handle. Take care.
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